I’m at a stage in my life where things have stopped happening the way I want them to. This is mostly because of the people I love the most. I never realised they would have such a loud impact on my decision making.
I have always felt free when it comes to deciding for myself but this is not the case lately. And I feel so bad since that day. There are moments where I feel so trapped that I couldn’t do something even though I want to do it badly. Even though I know it’s going to benefit me. Even though I know it’s going to benefit the people around me. Just because the people I love decided not to do it. Going against them is the hardest thing. And I don’t want to go against them because if they are sad then I’m sad too.
They should understand that this is not their decision to make. This is my decision and I should be left free to make whatever decision I want and whichever way I want to move forward and shape my life.
No matter how small or big that decision seems to be, the impact is the same. The simplest of the thing can hit you hard.
So, if you are someone who is trying to stop someone to make their own decision then stop it right away. It might be hurting him a lot.
Until Next Time.