Finally, Christmas is here. The city has lit up. All decorated. But unlike the other festivals, the Christmas vibes are silent and cosy.
It is a festival which is celebrated with close family members and relatives mostly over a 7-course dinner (this depends on the place I guess). Spend time talking and sharing stories with each other. A nice way to spend some quality time with your close ones. I can see how it would strengthen the relationships and spread joy among others.
It’s wonderful to stay and observe the happy faces all around. But at the same time, it makes me homesick. Really wish that my friends and family would have been closer to me during this time (proximity wise). I blame it on Covid 😡
Nevertheless, it allows me to look at a completely different side of me, which I have never known existed before.
Seeing other people enjoying company made me feel good but at the same time, I felt a void. This is a weird feeling, hard to explain (especially in English). It’s like going back to the old times and remembering the joy, but having a sense of loss at the same time. It was like having a good memory was a bad thing. Haha, I know I’m not making any sense but it was a different feeling. And I write to express the current state of my mind, body and emotions to others and especially for myself, my future self.
Wow! it’s good and bad at the same time.
Until next time.